My memorial is yet to come... I have to put down my black Tri after the holidays... am stalling with pain control but in my heart I know I need to let her go home after 13 years of love, loyalty, protection, happy, obedient, easy going big girl. She house trained herself when she arrived at 3 months and I was pleasantly surprised. She was originally bought as a gift for my husband but he had cancer and after a long period of grief, she slowly turned to me. Those loving dark eyes will follow me the rest of my life. Smart, trusting, ... ok so she was a bit stubborn only cause she was/is smarter than half the people in the world :)! Ask me how much I love her... How to say good-bye? God give me strength. She has grown old and thin, and I feel the stenosis of the spine and arthritis is almost too much even on meds... in turn I feel give her incontinence. Time to be a big girl and let her go... please pray for us.